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i'm losing my best friend. and i don't quite like it. i'm falling out of love with her. i thought i was gonna stay by her side till the end of times, like she said, till "forever and beyond" but.. we're falling apart. she took no time to call me and ask how i was, i did it all but had no answer, so i stopped looking for her.. i'm scared. i don't want to lose her, i don't want to walk around and cross looks with her thinking "we're back to strangers". i don't want her to be someone that i used to know.. I wanted to be that awesome adult that her kids loved, her bride's maide, be the one who she would call at night because she is troubled, even if that trouble makes no sense at all, wanted to joke about our mistakes in the past. I miss her. I want to hold her again. I want to see her, talk with her, i want to hug her..i want to tell her my secrets again and want her to tell me hers.. she won't talk to me, it seems like she just.. forgot everything..
i'm losing my bestfriend and it hurts like hell..